Saturday, April 16, 2016

Fuck all that extra

Man these niggas be really tryna brainwash u.
Try to make u feel less worthy than u are.
And they swear they different but they really not...
Its the same thing with every relationship.
So this time.around.
I'm.changing who I AM

I'm changing me.

And I'm scared and excited about it.

But u know what its time for change.

I.cut my dreads.
I got the short look going on.

Finna start riding my moped again.
The weather getting nice.

I'm.excited.

So anyways.

Love u world

Keep GOD intertwined in your life somehow I know it gets hard

Hey yall

Ok world so let me update you on life onetime.

So a lot has been going on...
My dad had came to visit.
I had a blast...
My baby daddy is a useless piece of trash.
And my ex is like...
Stuck in the past...

He pops up out here...
And we chill.
And I haven't seen this person in 3years plus...

We barely speak
I was tryna break the ice and talk to him
He answering questions with questions.like my nigga how long have I known u?? Either we.talking or not.
I'm like how long you in town...

Him: who.wants to know...

What brought you in town??

Him:who.wants to know??

It was.so stupid.

Then.after that he asks for head?!

Nigga wow...

I had to really just lay down and go to sleep...

And then the baby daddy think he can have a wife, a girlfriend, a side bitch, me.
Sleep here, fuck on me, then.disappear when he wants to.
He tell me.I can't fuck with no other niggas
Don't have niggas in his house.
He get mail here.
What the fuck.dude...

Like for real...

I'm so.over his stank in ass its ridiculous.

I'm taking small steps everyday towards a full future without him

Life with him is like I imagine life on Sherm.is like.

Anyways.
Everything happens for a reason I trust the Lord.
It gets real hard sometimes but I'm.still here I'm.still strong. I'm still beautiful
I'm still smart
I'm still valuable

Stay blessed my.good people and start taxing these niggas draining your life

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Lord please

Take this anger from.me because I am thru the roof right now.
Unable to see anything but red and hatred.
Thank you for exposing these people to me.
I can't believe what almost happened.

Make it better Lord and thank you for protecting me

Monday, February 15, 2016

Venting

Oh how I hate you
I hate how you lied
Hate how much I loved you
I hate how you seemed genuine
How you cried
How I cried with you
How those tears were all a lie
How u stole
How you were selfish
How abusive you were
I hate how much I tried to make it work
How I overlooked your lies
You made me feel so embarrassed

I hope that I can turn this hatred into self love.
I wanna grow stronger
And never accept treatment like this again
I hate who I am right now
I hate what youve done to me

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Lord help me

Lord first let.me start by thanking You.
For blessing me so abundantly.

Just because I complain please don't ever think I don't love my blessings I do. Just please Lord hear my cry.

I need your help in turning a new leaf.
I need help to let go of this negativity
This negative, black force that has been destroying me for the past 2 years.

I am.so tired Lord
Have been tired for a long, long time

So why do I feel trapped? Its not the baby
Not at all
Kids don't bind me
Sex don't bind me
So what is it that is so called binding me to this man?

I have no answer
So that's why I call on you oh Lord for your divine intervention
I can not do this without u

You know my heart, my worries, my cries, please work your magic

For I know You have a plan for my life to see me prosper and not to harm me