Thursday, September 24, 2015


So its almost October ☺☺☺
I am too hype.
I already found my Halloween costume. Hopefully I'll still be able to fit it by the time Halloween comes.
If not I have like 2 old costumes from a few years ago I can throw on if I can't fit this in a few weeks. But let's cross our fingers and pray I still will ����
All I really need is some Lil stockings and I'm set.
So I know these few weeks gonna fly by.

Getting all the doodads for the upcoming festivities ��
And I can't say much more yet.
Just wait on it

Always blessed and hardly stressed.

God bless u family.

Monday, September 21, 2015

The way God designed us

Saw this and it made me weep...
I was supposed to post this earlier I was just at a loss for the capability
Totally struck by this message I hope it resonates

Friday, September 18, 2015

Planning season

So as time dwindles down. It is now time to start planning my baby shower.

We already have a theme.
And although I was really pumped up the other day I'm starting to get kind of overwhelmed but I know I have a lot of help!!

I feel so blessed that everyone urged me to throw one☺��

So keeping things kind of under wraps for now.
Don't want any uninvited stalkers showing up.
Or fat, balding, broke losers dropping by.
So the date and time will be given out only to people attending.

On some exclusiveness.

Really can't wait tho!!!
This time is flying by.
And soon I will have this baby
And be getting my body and my life back!!!!!!!

Still have moving in the AIR
And I've found a few places both in Nv and in ca that I will be considering.

Have dating already back in play just taking it slow because I'm focusing on me and being very selfish about it ��

As my people told me the other day be selfish its ok!!!

So just updating my loves.

Stay blessed because God is a truly good God with a plan to better you.
In Jesus name


Friday, September 11, 2015

Lord i call on you

I am so sorry. That I only seem to call on you when I need something.
Please forgive my selfish heart and ways.

I need help Lord and I don't know where to go or who to call on. I just fall at your feet and weep.

I am so tired of making the wrong decisions in my life.
I am starting to feel worn out.

And all I want to do is protect and care for my kids.
How do I know if I'm providing the way you want me to?

I feel inadequate.

I need you help Lord.
My spirit is broken and my faith needs mending

Please help me

Help me to relax.
My anxiety is getting so bad.
I don't want to cry anymore.

In Jesus name amen

Monday, September 7, 2015

Rebirth like the butterfly

Please please pray for this woman

Sooo. I am apart of this online pregnancy support group and I recently came across this post...

I can only imagine what shes feeling. And what shes about to go thru. With the pregnancy and being hiv positive. Also trying to protect her baby from contracting it etc. Please keep her in your heart and your prayers... 

Thank you and happy holiday to you all

Saturday, September 5, 2015

Whats in a name??

So I'm pretty much set on a first and middle name.

But I am torn on the last name.

I don't know if I should give him his father's last name.

With my last son I gave him my grand fathers last name. Because it died when my grandmother and grandfather did and I wanted to revive my grandfather's legacy.

I don't know what to do this time because his father is not dependable.

I wanna give my son an important name. A name that stands for something.
A name he can want to live up to

And I'm not sure if that's what I have
Just gonna pray that God will give me the answer

Friday, September 4, 2015

With reluctance

I share my ultrasound pics...

This is the 3rd ultrasound I've had.

2nd 3d one, but the first the baby was so young his facial features went really distinguished

Here's a glimpse

I should have a few more later on in third trimester.

I really thank my family.

They're always so supportive and they know that in the end my kids are all that matter to me
They are my everything
And they're all I have

Its hard. But I thank God for the gift of my kids
Mother of 5 I would never ever have imagined.
But I am absolutely blessed.

Thank God and all His glory

Thursday, September 3, 2015

The cut off

So, u can only reach out to someone so many times

I'm cutting folks off
No dead weight

And if we only talk 3 times a year we ain't friends

A few years ago I fell out with my ex best friend

Never spoke to her again

Its that time again

So goodbye to all the people that won't make it

Well never speak again

Lord heard my cries again

I had a rough morning this morning

As I cried out feeling alone. Confused as to whom I need to have around me.

Woke up to this message for ME from GOD

I love you Lord keep me always

Wednesday, September 2, 2015

I hope

Um I.hope that you guys are able to read the screenshots of my emails and first 5s...

First 5 is an app that I had downloaded on my phone.
And for some reason it was corrupting my phones performance. So I ended up deleting it. But then re downloaded it onto my tablet.
So the screen shots look very different.

I access my blog from both my phone and tablet. Never a computer so I have no idea what these screenshots are looking like I hope theyre readable because the messages are so powerful.


Here's a copy of today's first 5

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

sept 2016


So when listening for God, I try to listen for the praises and blessings. But I also listen for lessons that I need to heed.
Things I need to hear and learn.

This is what I found today on my first 5.

... Note: I was married once. I got married when I was 18 and even tho we were separated for years. We just recently got divorced in 2012.

I might take that leap again. But only for the right person.


Love as God loves
Over looking faults

There's so much growing and learning involved in loving the right way

You give up so much of yourself when you do love openly

I love very hard

Am I loving like Jesus tho?

How does He love us? Everyday? Without giving up on us?
We sin everyday

Ignore His teachings
Over talk His voice and word

Yet somehow He keeps blessing us, loving us

Truly amazing

So I pray I can use my heart to be more like God

I hope I can be a blessing in someone's life

Are you?