You know today someone asked Me...
Would I rather have a particular ex back in my life under the same circumstances. ..
Or find someone who could treat me equally as nice but on a more frequent basis
Because they would live where I am
I had never thought of it like that.
I have been emotionally unavailable because I was waiting on this man
And I never was giving other men a even fair shot at courting me
How to I know they can't be an even better man than said ex?
Without a fair chance to prove themselves I'm not allowing them to show me who they are.
I deserve a good man I am such a good woman
A good mother
People like me
I shortstop myself
I've been living in a complete fantasy world.
But today I wake the fuck up.
I can't deal with this life.