Monday, March 31, 2014

You can't take

What's not there.

What's not real

I can buy another

Newer model

Better

Make it mine again

What will you havr

The same misconception that led you to your black, cold, lifestyle

You can't compete with me

Out of your leave baby we don't speak the same tongue

Hang yourself

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Blessed

As always,

No matter if I got robbed

Lied to

Ignored.

I am always blessed and highly favoured

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Hott

Getting closer to the truth and getting my bike back

Thursday, March 27, 2014

They got me yall

Not even 3 months after I got my motorcycle, they stole my shit.

Some hating ass nigga or bitch

Mad that I had just got me another  car and still had my motorcyce

I didn't even go drive off the lot like last time I went used and bought a lil bucket...

You still can't handle it
Hate

Steal

A police report is made.

The different neighborhoods I know are looking

From naked city, to the vistas, summerlin, and north town.

Every smoker, Pimp, d boy and girl, hoe, and gangster I know is looking for my shit.

I hope you crash and die on my shit on GOD

Its coming back to me as a blessing and watch how it kills you

Kill yourself hater

And thanks for the shade I was hott bitch

Moving right along

Dam folks it's April pretty much u know?

That's crazy...

This year moving right along.

Changes Changes.

Rearranging life.

But GOD is good.

I been meeting people.

Getting to know people.

Finding out more than I should lmao.

There is definitely some weird niggas in the game.

Niggas be doin a lot.

When in actuality I'm quite simple... at least in my own complex mind.

...

I can't wait to go camp man.
Its a lot of work packing and all that shit but once I get out there.

Very peaceful

It gives me a peace that the city can never give me.

Weeeeell, my intermission is over time to crawl back into bed for sleep #2 ;)

Live your life people

Cuz you could die today.

And too shay to the nigga who said they can't live life like that

Cause in all reality I can't either

*Drops mic and walks off 

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Happy g day amil

My baby turn 5 today.

She is a diva

She grown

She cold

And she mines

Friday, March 21, 2014

The funeral

So. The plans and preparation for the funeral are underway.

I never knew how much thought goes into this stuff

All the way down to what you wear in the casket

Its so crazy

Got me to thinking.

I don't want none of that when I go.

Just give me to the city like the homeless people and let the government worry about me.

I want my kids to stay together in my absence if they're underage of 18.

Donate all my stuff to a local church or charity.

And be done with me.

No viewing

No life support

Donate whatever organs u can

No tombstone

No urn

No memorial

No obituary

I wanna be forgotten

Don't cry over me

Chirp. Tweet

Struggling

But determined

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Adios

Self

Homicide

Dam crim

Sitting here

In bed. Thinking about life death.

Its hard to believe you're gone you was Just over here blowing drinking lol...

I miss you.
Its so much going on I wish I had your ear to talk in

Shoulder to cry on.

Wish it coulda been me instead of you

Monday, March 17, 2014

God created

Woman from man's rib.

We are meant to have a companion

Never been asked

You know today someone asked Me...

Would I rather have a particular ex back in my life under the same circumstances. ..

Or find someone who could treat me equally as nice but on a more frequent basis
Everyday
Because they would live where I am

I had never thought of it like that.

I have been emotionally unavailable because I was waiting on this man

And I never was giving other men a even fair shot at courting me

How to I know they can't be an even better man than said ex?

Without a fair chance to prove themselves I'm not allowing them to show me who they are.

I deserve a good man I am such a good woman

A good mother

People like me

I shortstop myself

I've been living in a complete fantasy world.

But today I wake the fuck up.

I can't deal with this life.

Repost

Sunday, March 16, 2014

God works

In mysterious ways...

New chapter coming...

I'm not one for goodbyes

I disappear

Bermuda triangle

Black hole

Living the untold

Unthinkable

Unbearable

Being invisible

Not invincible

Dismissing YOU

Saturday, March 15, 2014

She told me

To stop running.

But it's not running if you're never coming back

We all cried

Today we said good bye and rehomed our cats.

He was a really sweet guy and he said we could visit anytime. It was hard but necessary so we can finally move and start over.

In ready

My first date

So I had this unexpected date today. It's my neighbors brother... been knowing him a few years he had shown interest but I was preoccupied Smh.. any who.

He's living with his sister now who lives next to me so we're neighbors now...

;)

We c each other everyday
He carried my groceries in for me the other day...

He's attractive

And I am soooooooooo over due for some

He's not my usual type

But look where that shit landed me

He's younger than me of course
Lmao the young men love me

He told me he always wanted to date me but he thought I had a man

I've caught him staring a few times...

He's nice to look at
I gotta turn up

What if I die 2moro  ?

I don't wanna regret not being out there

I only got one life

Can't be stuck alone
Crying

Mad that I'm alone when so many people like me

As if

Wish me luck cuz I plan on having fun. No babies included

That part

Hoodbye

On to a different journey

Friday, March 14, 2014

Goodnight.

I hope to wake up 2moro

Giving away

My 2 beautiful siamese cats cuz they can't come with me when I move

#change

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Prayed about it

And did it.

No more time for second chances
Apologies
Excuses
Explanations

Its over.

New email and all.

Goodbye old life
And girlfriend

You're spam

White flag

I finally give up.

The devil is stealing my spirit and no one cares.

No one loves me

No friends

Nothing

And the few people that did fuck with me are dying

I give up

I have no will left

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Saturday, March 8, 2014

Cut my leg off

So as painful as its going to be. I have to cut off some limbs.

I can no longer carry them.