ok, so i think i have it semi figured out
which is probably more figured out than ive ever had it
and also i think the MOST that i can figure it out
because GOD has the ultimate plan
but my other HALF knows the other part of the plan that i dont know
and its time for him to come home, do his duties and his job, fulfill the promises that he made to me.
and let me make him happy and miserable everyday for the rest of his life.
its time for us to be married :)
i KNOW that i love this man
i have known that for a very very long time
and no matter how much i want to let him go
i want to stay mad
i miss him
but its not my place to tell him.
i think that he misses me too but his pride is bigger than him
*(if you can believe that one)
but when he reaches out to me he says the wrong thing. (smh)
maybe he's waiting for me to tell him that i love him.
how can i do that when im still so hurt over everything?
all i wanna do is cry
~~but i wanna cry in his big arms
putting it in the universe:
i thoroughly hate you
and love you a little more than that
if you are my soul mate.
then let GOD put in you the right words to say.
let GOD speak to me through you,
but let it not be false promises and lies
because i miss you
i love you
ive been waiting along time
you have a family that has been waiting for you
i hope you're ready now
sometimes its now or never
if im worth it,
if you want me forever
let GOD know
because life is short.
but i want to laugh and smile
and clown with you
you are the only one i wanna marry and spend the rest of my life with
you are poetry to me baby
i could look at your smile all of my life
ive been waiting for you to grow up.
so i can be apart of your life.
and i think i waited to long
and i made some bad decisions in the past
and i have suffered from it
youve suffered from it.
i never ever meant to hurt you i swear to GOD...
i think to some extent we grew apart for a while
but i still am very much in love with you.
now you tell me sir...
after all these years is it love?
how can you love someone you dont see ORRRRRR
isnt that a flame lit from GOD?
if you hear me
if GOD talks to you and you talk to GOD
i can forgive and forget
its prolly gonna be akward
but they say if you love someone you gotta love all of them
im ready now.
i hope to hear from you
its in GOD'S hands now ♥