so i talked to my friend today
he said he's been lookin for me lol
i had told him i went to the dr. with santana all day yesterday
he asked me why i didnt take him with me, he wanted to go and he told me "he cared"
i dont know what to think about that one,
usually when a man is trying too hard it doesnt end up well
its like WHY are you trying so hard?
what are we rushing towards??
anyways just thinking out loud...
he said he wanted to take me out for drinks.
but then he remembered i dont leave my daughter with anyone
why do guys always try to get you drunk??
its like "lets get to know each other"
"by drinking" lol
well since everything happens for a reason, then i was supposed to MISS that date
he said im obligated to spend time with him???
i dont know maybe i heard him wrong
but i swear i heard that ass right
all i really want is a friend man
somebody to hang out with
crack jokes with
didnt we go over this already??
im seriously not speaking in code
i cant deal with this man LOL
i dont know if im not feeling a relationship right now or if im just not feelin him
my bestie thinks it the latter lol
i dont know i asked my friend where he was,
he just so "happened" to be at the casino right near my house...
coinkydink?? i dont know you tell me
im glad i dont "do" casinos' you cant swoon me that way
im not really into bars or clubs
its really quite hard to "get" to me
im a hard person to figure out
im like shrek
im an onion
an onion has LAYERS!!! dammit lol
i think thats a good thing tho,
i have a few people trying to "court" me i guess you could say
but i dont know im still just really neutral right now
i just dont feel like im missing anything
i dont wanna fix anything thats not broken you know??
im not in to drama
usually theres always drama when you start dating anyone new
people all in your damm business
creating relationships that dont exsist
putting too much on it etc.
they be on it more than me type shit lol
why change any of that??
i am soooo drama free its not even funny right now LOL
i wake up with a fat ass smile on my face and go to sleep doing the same
i go to sleep when i want wake up when i want
chill with my kids day in and day out
i have a teenager almost LOL tween
i dont know if i wanna share my beautiful family with another person who might take advantage of us and all we have to bring to their life
they have to be super, ultra, mega fantastic
they have to be in GOD'S image