not sure where to go.
i feel like i need to start making different decisions
im still stuck on the same old people
but they havent changed...
you cant change people anyway,
i know better than that.
so i force myself to move on. delete your number out my fone...
grit my teeth and say goodbye
i cant ignore a perfectly good man for you
you make no effort.
i need someone who likes to see me everyday
someone who comes over when i feel sick
so dont call me anymore
dont text me
because im not gonna spend another minute letting you lie to me
tell me what you think i wanna hear
ive know n you long enough to know its all bullshit
you have a very bright future
im just not in it
here is where our roads split
driving us farther and farther apart
there is no common ground
and theres nothing to "check on"
lets not let our minds wander through grey area
life is confusing enough as it is
without 2 confused assholes fooling themselves into thinking they have anything left to talk about.
i wish i had more closure sure...
cuz it seems like things went from in love
to ice cold.
but those are the seasons of love i suppose
or maybe just lust
maybe i havent found or experienced true love yet
there hasnt been a man i havent had the balls to leave!
i have no problem chucking up the duece
locking my door
and sealing that bitch
so maybe that man hasnt graced me yet...
im not gonna ever settle
i'll die alone before i do that shit
i see all these unhappy people in these miserable relationships and i ask myself why??
i also ask myself how i stayed in my fucked up relationship for so long so....
it shows you what i know.
but im different than most cuz i leave when im not happy
and i continue to search for the happiness GOD intended for me :)
so its definitely not a bad thing that im single because my future husband is out there somewhere.
maybe we've met already
its all a great surprise waiting for me at my next turn
on this short road called life
this really young guy tried to talk to me today.
i dont think he's even old enough to drink.
cant do it.
no younggins, no kids, no baby mamas, no dope boys, no weed dealers,
dont even step to me
you gotta have your shit together if you want a woman like me
i KNOW my worth
and i know that i dont have to live my life arguing, and chasing after a lousy nigga tryna figure out what they doin all day long
i just want a regular guy
some one who wakes up and goes to work and goes home afterward
someone who wants me to wash clothes, cook and clean
and handle the other stuff ;)
somebody to clown with
to be down with
to talk about things with
someone to make decisions
someone who has a HEAD ON THEIR SHOULDERS
a strong sense of self.
not someone who is defined by their "friends"
yes you need to have a car
yes you need to also take care of the responsibilities of having a car
insurance, registration... read about that shit
have something worthy about yourself
who are you outside of your friends?
people in my age group are way too OLD to be at the club chasing what??
do you know how stupid you look?
its time for people to be on their grown man!
im definitely finna be on my grown woman!
im FINALLY divorced after almost 13 years wheeeew LOL
so im on the market now low key lmaoooo
just in time :)
my brother just got married, my sister a year ago, my other brother is getting married soon...
i think im ready to move on to the next phase in life and start slowing down
time to choose up basically
im checking resumes lol
and we'll see where i land...
off i go on another great journey!!!
the pursuit of happyness ♥♥♥