someone who i was so madly i love with
and my feeling right now, is
its such a surprise to me because i wanted this man with every breath in me
and now i dont know how i feel.
you know love is such a fragile thing
its like the rarest flower,
with the most tedious care instructions
so very fragile that if not taken care of in cautious, extreme measures
it will die
if you dont put half of your effort into the people that you "love"
your love is going to fade away into nothing
if you dont constantly work on communicating,
when you finally do open your mouth, its like you're speaking another language
without a connection
sexual connectivity also dies.
the entire system starts to shut down.
I am so pained right now, because i dont know where anything is going to go from here
the plan that was built got abandoned
now theres a big fat question mark on my face
because i dont know the answer
i cant predict the outcome
and im wondering where the friendship went
OR if we ever had one...
aside from us being attracted to each other
being able to laugh together
what else do we have?
lately we cant laugh with each other
we try to reach out but it is usually unsuccessful on both our ends honestly
it is TRULY a case of me being on Venus and him being on mars
we dont understand each other
we cant talk the same language
we just care about each other
I think about him ALL day LONG
i have to fight myself to NOT think about him
i have to call a friend
get on twitter
watch a movie
and u know when i finally talk to him i always think he's secretly laughing at me
its truly torturous
but im growing stronger because my feelings are dying
im so disconnected from everyone i used to know
everyone i knew in my old life
fool me once shame on you
fool me twice shame on ME
if everytime we talk
i end up in tears
it cant be right...
my heart is waving goodbye
i dont know what it is about this guy that makes me feel bad about myself.
but it HURTS
to have someone knock you down without them even trying
and i dont wanna be apart of it
r.i.p. ♥♥ ♥♥♥