Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Life, Death, Moving On

losing loved ones
to death,
to life,
money,
another woman,
coping and moving on
its not easy.
its a struggle and a testimony to GOD
who knows what lesson he wants me to learn.
the world stood still when Virginia Ann Macnair passed.
i saw life differently
i saw people differently
i see your selfish ways
i see your greed
you r CORRUPTED
destructive
unlucky.
i had to learn from losing my granny that love IS NOT any of those things
love isnt arguing
its not mistrust
its not jealousy
love IS NOT ONE SIDED
love is eternal
love is GIVEN from GOD
not everyone experiences love
you cant help who you love
how you love
why you love
when you love
it starts outta nowhere
it ends b4 u realize it has
love can make u feel used
abused
misused
and DISillusioned.
love can also make u feel GRAND
larger than life
powerful
womanly.
when u dont hav anything else in the world
love can make u feel like you OWN the world.
i dont want ANY FAKE expressions of LOVE
dont CHEAPEN love
dont WEAKEN love
GOD is LOVE
the respect u give your parents is love
the bond with your kids
a long, tight hug
a soft kiss on the neck
cooking and cleaning when you're sick
buying a birthday gift with your last.
compromise
sacrifice
this is how i learned to love
its the reason my life is priceless
because i know that i am favored by GOD
i know what i have to offer
i know what i have to give
its something u can never BUY
not if u were the richest man alive.
it cant be duplicated,
immitated,
or faked
it is the greatest gift GOD gave me to give
i know its worth now LORD
i see the value,
i hear you LORD
i will not give your greatest gift in vain LORD
i will not let it be mocked


notes from the heart of CHase