Tuesday, December 28, 2010

2011

i know it aint just me...
2010 FLEW

now its back to resolutions and self promises

being self critical

nobody is perfect man...
we all could be better people

we all could look better, sing better, drive better, treat people nicer, make more money, spend less...

the list goes on and on...

im not gonnna do that to myself this year

i wont bash myself

instead my resolution is to give myself as much happiness as i can

to remember my SELF WORTH

how much i actually DO deserve the very best.
i want to live the best possible life
the life GOD would intend me to live :)

Love

u cant live with it
u cant live without it
its easy and hard at the same time
it changes constantly
yet its always familiar.
love is my best friend :)

love is the best when its genuine.

u cant control love
love controls YOU

what would we be without it?

absolutely nothing

GOD is love

you cant live without GOD
you cant live without L♥VE

Thursday, December 23, 2010

dec 23 2010

why am i so frustrated with life?
why don't i know what i want?
i feel like I'm too old to still be lost...
the things i want change everyday, multiple times a day...
how do we satisfy ourselves when it changes every other minute?

why does happiness seem so temporary?
its so elusive
it never seems permanent...

i think the stipulations on what makes us happy also changes
just because I'm happy with something today doesn't guarantee it'll make me equally happy tomorrow or happy at all even....
at the same time it also doesn't mean it cant make me happy again...

i try to figure life out everyday.
LOVE... i try to figure that out and I'm still LOST

i feel like i don't know whats goin on
i have no control

i only pray that the LORD will guide me through life and make the decisions for me because if its left up to me and my confusion i don't know where I'll end up...


Monday, December 6, 2010

thinking out loud

im sitting here, and im wondering why people do the things they do
why do people create negative situations?
i truly believe that some people dont know how to live without controversy

i, however hate it.
drama, controversy, arguing, dwelling on the past...

the past can kill you.
concentrating on the past prevents you from focusing on the present and building a future.

as the wise man once said
"what lies behind us and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what lies within us"
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thursday, December 2, 2010

changes

i know so many ppl who b havin drama n they life...
when will u learn?

anyways the month is moving along...
i got mad plans this month
alot of changes
all for the better of course...

stayin away from HATERS and INSTIGATORS!

its finna b 2011 yall
out with the old
in wit da neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew

im shaking u foo foos

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Dec 2010

This year went by really fast...
the years go faster the longer im around...

im getting ready for the new year...

im in the holiday spirit despite being seperated from my loved ones...

my christmas tree is UP
*sparkly sparkly*

and im ready for christmas vacation :)

I hope i can get my oldest boy out here...
i miss him...

anyways happy holidays everyone :)

Friday, November 26, 2010

my 30th Burfday


first and foremost i thanked JESUS CHRIST
for giving me his mercy and giving me another day
i reached 30 years old today :)
i know alot of people that never reached 30.

im grateful for today

i didnt do much.

spent time with my kids,
...talked to l♥ved ones...

but whut i did, that was important was enjoy myself...

i am planning my happily ever after
and im LOVING IT!!!

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Beautiful suprise

It's like yesterday
I didn't even know your name
Now today
You're always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I feel this way

You are beautiful surprise

Intoxicated
every time I hear your voice
You've got me on a natural high
It's almost like, I didn't even have a choice

You are a beautiful surprise

Whatever it is you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we are written in the stars
I don't know what the future holds
But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are

You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul

You are a beautiful surprise

You are an inspiration to my life!!!
You are the reason why I smile :)

You are a beautiful surprise
♥♥ ♥♥♥

Friday, July 30, 2010

Simplifying My Life

im eliminating alot out of my life
using and keeping only what i NEED.
giving more to myself,
more to my children.
i dont want to constantly be distracted from them.
technology is a blessing nodoubt
but it is a constant intrusion.
cable, Internet, phone, cell phone, email, chirp, fax machines, its all very draining to me.
if i have the internet at home, why do i then also need it on my phone?
if i have a phone at home, why do i need one on the go?
CONVENIENCE
but all the sudden these "conveniences" are INconveniencing me.
i have a million ways to get in contact with the ones away from me
when i should be connecting with the ones IN front on me :)

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

parents

never put a MAN before your children
SHOW them the type of people u want them to be
LEAD by example
WATCH what u are teaching your sons or daughters
are u showing them how to be a LEADER
how to STAND UP 4 THEMSELVES?
be INDEPENDANT?

ladies... if you have a daughter,
SHOW THEM how to be a STRONG WOMAN
BE the woman u want your baby to grow up to BE
let HER SEE THAT A MAN DOES NOT DEFINE YOU


if you have SONS
SHOW THEM the type of MAN they should grow up to be
SHOW THEM responsability


TOO many women are raising kids with NO MORALS
no VALUES BEYOND THEMSELVES


these are the SAME children that are going to be the young adults in the NEAR future
yet we teach them the WRONG things
we teach them TO REJECT responsability

we ALL are gonna have to depend on our children one day

if YOU REJECT YOUR CHILD

when you NEED THEM

they may REJECT YOU!

Saturday, July 3, 2010

jULY 3 2010

ive been trying to teach my 6 year old son about GOD
and how to talk to him
why he should have a relationship with GOD
how GOD blesses us
i SHOW him GODs blessings
i ask him about what he says to GOD
he reads bible scripture almost everyday (lol he's 6 what do u want lol)

things have gotten better between us
but we have along way to go still


i want to build our communication with each other
i know that there are more things that i can be doing to help things move along.

so today when my son wakes up (me and amil woke up before him today... WOW)
i will tell him what I talked to GOD about.
and i hope when i do that
he can see that im a person

i make mistakes
i get hurt
i get dissappointed
i struggle

and all i want for him is to be BETTER than me

i just want him to have more
see more
be more

make more
create more

i love my kids so much

they are continuously teaching me about myself
making me stretch myself further
set a higher standard
love a little harder

to still be able to care for them
when u emotionally feel like youre in a pit of despair

that is GOD

GOD fills me and moves me when i cant do it for myself
thats the power i want my kids to know

DO the unthinkable
be UNSTOPPABLE

Monday, June 28, 2010

Women

please hold yourself in the highest regard you can!!
try to see yourself as GOD sees you.
you are VALUABLE
you are PRICELESS

you are worth FAR MORE THAN RUBIES proverbs 31:10

Men...

winning is like shaving,
if u don't do it often,
u start 2 look like a bum!

WIN dammit!

concept

who we really r never changes,

but who we THINK we r does

& just bcuz everything is different,

doesn't mean that anything has changed...

'as a man thinketh in his heart SO IS HE 'proverbs 31

Watch ur thoughts; they become words.
Watch ur words; they become actions.
Watch ur actions; they become habits.
Watch ur habits; they become character.
Watch ur character; they become ur destiny!

The FOREVER artist

Hi everybody, i want to welcome u here to my new blog.
this is basically just another medium that i will be using to keep you all updated on whatever im up to. also while giving everyone a way to get in contact with me for their tattoos.
FYI i am trying to get all my los angeles appointments in line before i take my trip down there, so if you are in the l.a. (or vegas)area(s) between august and december we can try to schedule something.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Life, Death, Moving On

losing loved ones
to death,
to life,
money,
another woman,
coping and moving on
its not easy.
its a struggle and a testimony to GOD
who knows what lesson he wants me to learn.
the world stood still when Virginia Ann Macnair passed.
i saw life differently
i saw people differently
i see your selfish ways
i see your greed
you r CORRUPTED
destructive
unlucky.
i had to learn from losing my granny that love IS NOT any of those things
love isnt arguing
its not mistrust
its not jealousy
love IS NOT ONE SIDED
love is eternal
love is GIVEN from GOD
not everyone experiences love
you cant help who you love
how you love
why you love
when you love
it starts outta nowhere
it ends b4 u realize it has
love can make u feel used
abused
misused
and DISillusioned.
love can also make u feel GRAND
larger than life
powerful
womanly.
when u dont hav anything else in the world
love can make u feel like you OWN the world.
i dont want ANY FAKE expressions of LOVE
dont CHEAPEN love
dont WEAKEN love
GOD is LOVE
the respect u give your parents is love
the bond with your kids
a long, tight hug
a soft kiss on the neck
cooking and cleaning when you're sick
buying a birthday gift with your last.
compromise
sacrifice
this is how i learned to love
its the reason my life is priceless
because i know that i am favored by GOD
i know what i have to offer
i know what i have to give
its something u can never BUY
not if u were the richest man alive.
it cant be duplicated,
immitated,
or faked
it is the greatest gift GOD gave me to give
i know its worth now LORD
i see the value,
i hear you LORD
i will not give your greatest gift in vain LORD
i will not let it be mocked


notes from the heart of CHase